I was thinking about life and our future as a family I have come know that life is almost never as you predict. I never imagined my life to head into the directions that it has. I don't know if any ones knows this but we decided to move to Alaska over night practically and moved there about a month later. It was so weird to be in a place where I knew no one, I didn't know the city at all, I didn't even know how to get to the place I was living. After a while I started to really know that we were suppose to be there and that it was a good thing for our family. We met a lot of good people and learned about how important family is and the support of the church. After Alaska I was so sure I had the rest of our lives planned out. Jeff would have his perfect job, we would buy this new big house, I would get pregnant and we would have a new baby. I wanted to have a salon in my house so I could have my own business and we would just be happy. As most of you know things didn't happen as we had planned. Jeff didn't get the job and had to find a new career, we had to find a place to live that we could afford (not new and big), I couldn't get pregnant because we didn't have insurance and we didn't know how we could afford it and I couldn't have my salon in my house. For a long time I could not think why Heavenly Father answered a prayer with something other than what I thought was best for my family. I thought maybe I was being punished for something I did or didn't do. But than as time goes by the pain isn't as bad and I think to myself that I am happy and maybe this way is better for our family and that this is what we are suppose to be doing and how our life should be. We may not be rich and we may not have the new big house that we wanted but I am confident Jeff will find a job that he likes and I really love my house. It is old, really old, but it is my old house. And yes babies are in our future (no I am not pregnant) and yes life can be hard but that's what makes us strong and makes us appreciate all that we have. So I am hopeful for whatever the future brings me and I know that is will be great as long as I make it that way. It is my choice to be happy and that is what I will always choose.
You know, I've been thinking some of those same things the past few days. Life never goes as we plan for ourselves, but usually we find ourselves happy anyway. It's nice to hear you say it, I know it isn't just me!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that you're happy and I also love your cute old house! It's crazy how life works out, but I'm so glad to have a sister like you to get great advice like this from!
ReplyDeleteYou have such a good attitude! Sometimes it's hard to see the big picture but Heavenly Father has a much greater plan for us than we could ever imagine :).
ReplyDeleteWell said! So many times I have had my life "planned" out then get thrown a curve ball. Thanks for the reminder to be grateful for what I have!
ReplyDeletePeople try and plan their lives? Man! Just kidding! I hate not being able to have my own timeline, but I guess I would be settling for less if I was in charge of what happens to me and my family! The Lord always blesses us in ways we never thought of! :)
ReplyDeleteYou make what you make of LIfe! Life is hard ans sometimes we don't understand everything that god has planned out for us and we even get confused on what we should be doing! You are a good mom and have way cute kids! I often wonder where our life would be at if tony was still working at Professional Carpets or doing something totally different. Its fun to see where your life turns out and what you are doing! It's also fun to be in different states and to travel the states, like miq and cody! I want to come and see your house one day!! Keep up being the great mom and wife that you are!
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